Psychotically-pink

He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous
He says everything I need to hear and it’s like
I couldn’t ask for anything better
He opens up my door and I get into his car
And he says you look beautiful tonight
And I feel perfectly fine

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it’s 2am and I’m cursing your name
You’re so in love that you act insane
And that’s the way I loved you
Breakin’ down and coming undone
It’s a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that’s the way I loved you

He respects my space
And never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He’s close to my mother
Talks business with my father
He’s charming and endearing
And I’m comfortable

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it’s 2am and I’m cursing your name
You’re so in love that you act insane
And that’s the way I loved you
Breakin’ down and coming undone
It’s a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that’s the way I loved you

He can’t see the smile I’m faking
And my heart’s not breaking
Cause I’m not feeling anything at all
And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating intoxicating
Complicated, got away by some mistake and now

I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
It’s 2am and I’m cursing your name
I’m so in love that I acted insane
And that’s the way I loved you
Breaking down and coming undone
It’s a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that’s the way I loved you oh, oh

And that’s the way I loved you oh, oh
Never knew I could feel that much
And that’s the way I loved you

So breathless the night carves her airwaves out of leaves
I am up against tattoos of scars and skin so cold so deep
I’m 20 ft and sinking faster than the ship I’m in
useless to jump or swim

I could hold my breath till I blow up
and make this all seem real no
matter how hard I try I cant seem to
win this stupid game I apologize for
keeping you up wasting all your time

so I’m stuck with the image you walking me to my car
and how nice it felt to be alive in someone’s arms
last night felt like the only time that we made sense
and every moment after which shook it up chalk it up to coincidence

I could hold my breath until I blow up
and make this all seem real
there’s nothing like waking up
after all the sadness has been slapped off
and its just me and you looking at all these things

how am I supposed to breath
how am I supposed to breath
how am I supposed to breath
How am I supposed to breath

Lucky for me we were lying down
Just from kissing you I could of passed right out

The Only Exception

When I was younger I saw my daddy cry
and curse at the wind.
He broke his own heart and I watched
as he tried to reassemble it.

And my momma swore
that she would never let herself forget.
And that was the day that I promised
I’d never sing of love if it does not exist.

But Darling,
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

Maybe I know somewhere
deep in my soul
that love never lasts.
And we’ve got to find other ways
to make it alone.
Keep a straight face.
And I’ve always lived like this
keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now I had sworn to myself
that I’m content with loneliness.

Because none of it was ever worth the risk.

Well you are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

I’ve got a tight grip on reality,
but I can’t let go of what’s in front of me here.
I know you’re leaving in the morning
when you wake up.
Leave me with some kind of proof its not a dream.

You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

I’m on my way to believing
And I’m on my way to believing

For a serious case of the cranks is dancing around my apartment to music I would never dare admit I actually have in my music collection.

Acting like an idiot always makes me feel better. Especially when it involves singing loudly. I have a sudden urge to do some karaoke.

I’ll add the mp3 later.

You’re not in on the joke-Cobra Starship

Don’t take them faces at their value in a cynical town
Yeah, can’t you smell the stale air?
I had no skill but I had heart so then I turned it around
Just remember

I’m no cynic, you know i’m just get bored
I’m no cynic; no, I got a heart of gold

They say I’m cold, cold, cold
Baby why so cold?
I’m super-sweet sealed with a kiss
Don’t get offended if there’s something you missed

I only show you what I want you to see
I’ve got my t-t-t-t-tongue in my cheek
If you see them laughing
Don’t follow hand
Cause they’re not part of my joke

I’ll always be just who you want me to be,
and keep my t-t-t-tongue in my cheek
A hopeless romantic
You’ll never see,
Cause you’re not in on the joke

I got my picture in the paper and my parents were proud,
“Hey kid, that’s not a bad job” yeah
Next thing you know, peculiar faces start hanging around
Dear lord could you spare me?

I just got one side to show you all
My ass is awesome, so smile
When you’re kissing it off
Oh, oh

They say I’m cold, cold, cold,
Baby why so cold?
I’m super sweet sealed with a kiss
Call your professor if there’s something you missed

I only show you what I want you to see
I’ve got my t-t-t-t-tongue in my cheek
If you see them laughing (you see them laughing)
Don’t follow hand
Cause they’re not part of my joke

I’ll always be just what you want me to be
And keep my t-t-t-t-tongue in my cheek
A hopeless romantic
You’ll never see
Cause you’re not in on the joke

No you don’t know
(you don’t know me)
No you don’t know
(you don’t know me)
No you don’t know

(meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee)

I only show you what I want you to see
I’ve got my tongue, tongue in my cheek
If you see them laughing
Don’t follow hand, cause they’re not part of my joke

I’ll always be just who you want me to be
and keep my t-t-t-t-tongue in my cheek
A hopeless romantic,
You’ll never see
Cause you’re not in on the joke

Up and Go

Good albeit a bit old.

It seemed like a song day to me.

Insomnia: 4

Ashli: 0

Awesome.

Music: Farewell to Friends by Matchbook Romance-The West for Wishing EP

Song by Moneen:

So..spending the day (and night) with the X was nothing short of awesome.

I know..I know..I can hear the tongues clucking, and feel the fists shaking. I can’t help it..very rarely do I listen to my head. Yes, it does tend to get me into trouble, but it’s worth it. Most of the time.

Have you ever known someone, and it seems like time stops when you’re together? That’s how it was/always has been. I don’t mean it in a mushy romantical way. It was just like nothing changed. Like three weeks ago I hadn’t left, and like a few days ago I wasn’t feeling like my world was falling apart.

To feel like that for even 24 hours was an amazing thing. For the small bit of time I felt like everything was going to turn out for the better-for us. Maybe I’m being too optimistic. Maybe I’ve gone soft, but it doesn’t change the way I feel.

Sure there were talks about feelings, and about how I don’t agree with what’s going on right now, but that’s fine. I got to say my piece. And I know when you break up with someone you’re suppose to play it cool and pretend you don’t give a shit. I’m sorry, but I just can’t do that. I’m not a good liar, and I’m definitely not good at hiding my feelings.

At least its out there. And besides, it’s not a matter of feelings, it’s a matter of my getting my shit together. Which is something I’m working on. Hopefully it can be done sooner rather than later. I’d like to have yesterday back as soon as possible.

ps-i realize the song is depressing. It is however prettiful, and I like the name. So pish.

01 In Transit (For You)

I love this song. I’m not posting it because I’m a miserable fuck, I’m just posting it because it’s a beautiful song.

Ps-The Wordpress Mp3 player isn’t working, so open the link in another window. Sorry dudes.

Lyrics:
Dream baby for me
I’ll be waiting here for you
Pack your things, fly to me
Scatter me across the sky
I’ll shine all night
And just like a star
I’ll fall for you

Baby if you want me to
I’d do anything for you
Just say the words and I’d give you the world
Yeah, but that’s not good enough

Starlit sea will be our dance floor
And birds will sing our song
And your scars, your scars will heal
For You

Baby if you want me to
I’d do anything for you
And just say the words, and I’d give you the world
Yeah, but that’s not good enough

And Baby if you wanted me to, why not say so
Let me go cause I cant shine bright enough for you

I shine for you

I fall
Dream baby for me
I’ll be waiting here for you

So..apparently this band was on Conan the other night and they sucked.

So now everyone is freaking out about how they’re horrible live.

I would just like to say one thing:

There must have been something wrong with the acoustics. Now, I’ve never seen Cobra Starship live, but I have seen Midtown live several times. All of these times Gabe Saporta sounded great. So. I just fail to see how his secondary band could be so horrible live.

The end.