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After calling and hounding people I finally found out that I can go to school. I’m allowed to start classes at the college tomorrow.

I just have one (or two) problems:

I’m not signing any paper work until the 30th, so I won’t be getting any money until the middle of October. So how exactly am I going to be getting to school? I have 5$ to my name right now (literally.). My mom said she can lend me rent until the moula comes, but still.

So fucking frustrating. I might have to miss class tomorrow until I can find some way to get there.

**Update**

My mother and family are amazing. Seriously. They helped me pay to apply for college, they paid my deferral fees, they feed me and kept a roof over my head all summer even though I was miserable and acting like a cunt most of the time.

My mother is going to lend me rent and 100$ so that I can buy bus tickets and groceries. Seriously. I’m so happy I have such an amazing mother and grandparents. They’ve always been there for me, especially when I feel like flinging myself off a bridge.

Love them. Despite my shit luck, I’ve been blessed with an amazing and supportive family.

Love you guys. <3

The MTCU is saying I didn’t submit a letter of acceptance with my application.

Uh yes I did. In fact I have a copy of the application right in front of me. So now they want me to fax or scan them another copy. Guess what folks? I don’t own a scanner, or a fax machine. I also have no extra money to pay someone else to do it.

Could something go my way just fucking once? Really?

Update:

Now they’re saying I haven’t been in the workforce long enough. Hello! I’ve worked full time for 2 years (aside from when I’ve been laid off) so, once again the Record Of Employment my previous Employer failed to give me when I originally applied for Employment Insurance has fucked my life up again.

I’m getting so tired of jumping through fucking hoops. I should have just found a way to get a student loan at a bank or something, this is fucking ridiculous. My life is an epic fail right now. I’m trying to get this all straightened out, but I just don’t know how much more I can take.

Update 2:

So basically after a bunch of horse shit, my application finally went through. I should hear something this week. Please send good vibes my way!

Basically what happened is they didn’t believe I worked full time for as long as I had (they didn’t count the fact that I had been laid off multiple times, even though I had told them about 10 times.) and on top of that when I first took my full time job I was also working at the Body Shop.

They thought I was lying and just working two part-time jobs. When I corrected her (I was working 42 hours at my tech job during the week, and another 15-20 at the Body Shop on weekends) she said there was no way I was working two jobs.

Because you know, I’m a lazy fuck or something. Anyway, I just called again to see if they were going to support my application or not, and they are. So yay. She seemed a lot nicer that time too.

I need your good vibes people! I want this more than I’ve wanted anything. It’s time to turn my life around!

So at 9am on the dot this morning I was woken up by my case worker for the government program. She gave me some major ‘tude about previously going to University. “Ashli, It has come to my attention…” Congrats, you can read my application where I clearly state that I went to University under the education section.

“You went for 4 years? How did you not get a degree?” Listen cuntface, I did not go for 4 years straight. I took years off. I never finished. I changed my major a million times.

Then she asks about how I paid. I really don’t see what this has to do with anything, but I told her about OSAP and how I’m not paying anything back right now because I don’t meet the income requirements. then she asked why I never finished school.

I wanted to scream at her that I’m lazy and that’s why I didn’t finish. Because honestly, it’s 9am, I’m half asleep, not a morning person, and you’re making me feel like a pile of shit. No, I didn’t finish my university degree, for a million reasons. I had some major mental issues I needed to take care of, and why finish a degree I’m never going to use? Why deepen the debt load?

God I hate being talked to like I have a low IQ and am scum of the earth. I just want to be accepted into this stupid funding program already.

Stress..oh stress. I love the way you make me lose weight and not be able to hold down any proper meals.

So I’m moving back to Windsor this weekend-school or no school. I cannot take this town any longer. There are no jobs, nothing to do, and none of my friends live here (except the ones who also are moving away this weekend for school)

So Friday I search, find a place I like, and move in the next day.

There was some discussion about going on Thursday and visiting the x over night. I would love to, as I am pathetic and have literal withdrawal symptoms. I just need to come up with a good enough excuse that my grandparents will allow me to use the car overnight without realizing what I’m really doing.

It’s evil, but I have needs.

Tomorrow. I shop. I can’t wait. I also ordered contacts for the first time in a year. Yay!

So this morning I was supposed to have a phone interview at 10:45am for the government program that could potentially be paying for my schooling. 11:15am rolls around..I’m laying in bed pretty annoyed. I’m not a morning person to begin with and I didn’t fall asleep last night until sometime after 5 (yay stress!)

So finally I call the center and tell them I didn’t get my phone call. They route me to whoever was going to do it…and she hung up on me. Awesome. Finally 15 minutes later she calls.

Did she apologize for being late? No. Did she apologize for being a cunt and hanging up on me? No.

In fact the whole time we’re talking she’s talking to me like I’m an idiot. “I see here under career plan you said you want to open a pet store? That has nothing to do with Marketing.” I was too tired and bitchy to fight it, but what the fuck?! Any type of business involving sales and advertising is going to involve marketing!

Then she re added everything and somehow bumped the amount I was asking for up to 800$ over the 28 000$ limit. Which is retarded. But whatever. They can give me whatever and I’ll live off it. How my calculation of 22 560$ was bumped up to 28 876$ I’ll never know. She also said they wouldn’t pay for transportation.

How do they expect me to get to school then? Walk? Finally she clued in. Asked all sorts of question and demanded how I came up with the amounts I did. I understand she’s being thorough, but all of my calculations are there on an extra sheet.

Nothing pisses me off more than being talked to like I’m an idiot. I can add, thanks.

I can’t wait to pick up back to school moula tomorrow to buy back to school stuff. Nothing cures my bitchiness like shopping.

Ps- I still can’t believe she didn’t fucking apologize. ROWR!

Numero uno (infact as soon as I find out I got into the Second Career program this puppy will be mine. Muahahahhaha!)

And these (I am 25 going on 14 and I don’t care what anyone thinks.):

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and for lunch:

heheheheheehe Have I mentioned how much I love back to school shopping?

4 and a half hours later, and one run to Walmart for whiteout and I am all done with my paper work!

I have one serious hand cramp though. Frig.

I’m officially accepted to College!! I sent my highschool transcripts in today, and I spoke to the Business Admissions person and she officially put my status to accepted.

I’ve decided to go into Marketing. I think I’d enjoy it, and I think it would help me most for opening a business. Accounting would have been good too, but I think I would have been bored stiff. I also got a letter from the government to waive my deferral fee (they’re paying it for me) so that’s a load off my back.

After the whole EI thing, I just don’t have the extra 100$ to pay the fee myself. thank goodness the government is being proactive for once. This funding program really is going to be a godsend.

Now I need to finish up paperwork and find an apartment!

I love pro and con lists. I know it’s lame, but I always have.

The most recent one I made was regarding returning to school before attempting to own my own business. Obviously school won out over opening something up cold turkey. I know most of the time decisions are fairly straight forward, and you should trust your gut.

My gut has fucked me over many a time, so now I do this whenever I’m making a somewhat important decision. It just makes things easier, and it makes defending the decision I make a helluva lot easier too.

Regarding school- I need to stop sitting on this paper work and finish it. I need to pay my deferral fees and pick up some transcripts tomorrow.

Do not want.

I got into school for all programs I applied for. I think I’m going to go for Marketing.

So yay for a day that I was actually enjoying ending up shitty.

FML.